February 2003

02/07/03

In the past few months I've been overwhelmed by horrible thoughts. I don't know where they come from but the darkness keeps coming. Today I was at the bank standing in line for an obscenely long time while this elderly woman attempted to perform some menial task. We all stood there while she took her time and wasted ours. Several times I thought of yelling and screaming to her to get the fuck on with it. I imagined smashing her head on the counter. It was disturbing because I more or less get along with everyone. Lately though, I find my observations of the mass public only confirm my suspicions that the average person is a fucking moron! Then I think , how horrible it must be to be completely stupid and not realize it. What if it's sweet bliss? Just to be ignorant to the utter insanity of the human race. I'm sure that's what is thought of me, utter insanity. Maybe average Joe thinks I'm a fucking loony. To be honest he's probably right. 

02/16/03

Can't sleep due to several hours of exposure to Johnny G . I am now buzzing so hard that I don't know when I'll sleep. I haven't seen him in over a year or more.  All is not well in the world of Mitchell. I have to go to court Tuesday for my D U I and I fear the worst and hope for the best. I hope I don't go to jail but who knows? I can't escape the pigs forever. Wish me luck.